While I was brainstorming for ideas and replying to comments, I noticed that I have posted 200 posts on my blog! Well, once this post goes up it will be 200, but you know what I mean. That’s a lot of typing, and because I do reviews and stuff it’s been a lot of swatching and looking at lipstick stain tattoos grace my arms for almost a year now. It’s actually a joke with my family now, they’re always expecting to see some lipstick on my arms. They’re my “temporary tattoos.”
When I started this blog, I didn’t really have a purpose. I posted here and there and had no schedule. I was feeling down and very depressed. My anxiety was inhibiting me from leaving many days and I just felt like something had to give. When I brought up the idea of blogging mostly about makeup and beauty to my mom, she agreed that it might be good for me to have a creative outlet. It would give me something that is solely “mine” and would give me some consistency in the midst of the total chaos that is being a mom of two very small children.
To say that blogging has essentially saved my life in some ways is an understatement. I feel like I have a voice now. I have ever made friends, which if you read my post about my friendships (and lack thereof) the past few years, you will know that it’s a big deal for me. I absolutely love the blogging community as a whole. Sure, there are some negative areas, but most of the areas have brought nothing but positivity into my life. I consider each of you my friend.
Blogging isn’t just for my own self gain though. I truly adore and appreciate every single person that follows me and supports me. I can’t count the times I have caught myself smiling at a comment someone has left, and I have even been in tears at times. Good tears. The happy kind that reinforce that I do have a small place on the internet. A place to show the passion for makeup and pretty colors since I was a toddler. I have loved watching all of your blogs, if you have one, grow.
So, for my 200th post, I wanted to write out how grateful I am for every person reading this now. I mean that from the bottom of my heart. You have all helped me climb out of one of the darkest places I have been in. I’m sure that if my daughters could fully grasp what was going on with me a year ago and see the difference now, they would be thanking you all as well. I’m in a way better place now than I was a year ago. I still have a lot to work on, but I will continue to cope and try to be better for my kids sakes.
I love blogging. I’m still a very small blogger, but that’s okay with me. Numbers do not concern me. I told myself in the beginning that I will always prefer 200 people following me that read and engage with me than 2,000 that do not any day. I still mean that. Even if I stopped blogging tomorrow, I would still buy lipstick. I would still be reading your posts and ogling over your makeup collections. So, I might as well just continue to type it out.
Here’s to 200 posts, and to 200 more. I don’t plan on stopping any time soon. Thank you to every single person that follows me, likes my posts, retweets my tweets on twitter. You are all so special, and I just wanted to express that in a short post today.
You have all had a deep impact on my life, whether you know it or not.
Have a good day.
11 thoughts on “Hey, I’ve Posted 200 Times Now”
Congrats on your 200! 🙂
I had quite a few blogs back in the day. But I left it all behind due to anxiety and depression. I started my blog for very similar reasons. And it has helped me so much. But like you said I still have a ways to go. But it’s so nice having a place that’s all my own where I can express myself. I used to keep to myself a lot. I wouldn’t even comment I was so shy and scared. The idea of even posting my picture made me feel sick. Every day I force myself to try and socialize a bit. As scary as it is. So it’s helped me to step out of my shell too. But like you said there are some bad points too. However, I’ve learned not to let it get to me. It’s a process.
I’m glad I found your blog. You seem like a really cool person and I love your posts/videos. 🙂
Congrats! Keep it up, here’s to another 200! 🙂
Huge congrats on 200 posts huni 🙂 that’s a wonderful achievement as it shows how committed you are to your blog… which I have to say I adore! Very true words about the follower count! I’d much rather have a small amount of supportive & interactive followers that a sea of people that have no interest! Bottoms up to the next 200 posts *clink* hehe Karen XXX
Congratulations on 200 posts! That’s amazing girl! I can relate to you in why you started blogging. The same was for me going through depression and anxiety. Living in a big city and not knowing anyone can be so isolating. Blogging has been a life saver to me as well. I have met so many wonderful people such as yourself and it’s just been amazing! I’m so glad to be getting to know you better through your wonderful blog! I always look forward to your posts and YouTube videos! 🙂 xo
Goodness, you are so sweet! I really enjoy your blog as well! I really love the blogging community as a whole, and there are some truly wonderful people!
Ha! Thank you so much for your kind words, I always appreciate your support and kindness! I totally agree, and I feel the same way about people in my everyday life. I will take 1-2 very close friends over a huge amount any day. I feel like I can create closer bonds with people.
Thank you so much! 🙂
Thank you so much, that means the world to me. You’re right, it is a process. I would be lying if I said there hasn’t been times when I wanted to quit because I told myself that no one liked me or whatever else was running through my head that day, and sticking to something that forces me to talk and interact like this is so new to me, but it feels nice to finally feel like I can stick with something. I’m really glad to have found your blog along the way as well!
Awww thank you so much! I really love the blogging community too! 🙂 ❤
Congratulations on your 200th post. I loved reading your post and the sincerity behind it is so real and deeply moving. I’m so happy this process has helped you reach a better place. Blogging is so much more than what many people think. It has certainly helped me over the past few months build confidence and be happier with myself. I can relate to your message for sure.
I’m glad to share in your life with your blog. 💋 lots of love to you – Janine
So welcome Kayla 😀 Yep, same here huni – genuineness over numbers anyday!!! XXX